Wednesday, September 29, 2004
Last 2 days
can you feel the beat?
I am left with
1/2 of english
Lit(never touch)
6/8 of bio
6/8 of chemistry
6/8 of physics
5/8 of math
3/4 of chinese
20 more cheng2 yu3
4 chapters of history
3:50 PM
Saturday, September 25, 2004
Short Of air
can you feel the beat?
Things left for mugging
English
Lit
Chinese 29 chapters
60 more cheng2 yu3
History 5 chapters
history source base skills
7/8 of bio
2/3 of chemistry
physics(never touch)
9/10 of math
o god help me...wad hav i done other than studying a few chapters of chinese and history??? i wan to go and knock the wall le...nxt week exam liao eh! o gosh...haiz haiz
6:16 PM
Friday, September 24, 2004
Things left to mug for
can you feel the beat?
32 chinese chapters
70 cheng2 yu3
physics(never touch)
7/8 of bio
2/3 of chemistry
english(never touch&oso dunno wad shld i study)
Lit(never touch)
9/10 of math
8 chapters of history
history source base skills
etc etc etc
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shit shit shit i think i gonna die le...here again..i'm slacking. Today is suppose to be study leave...suppose to study hard...but me?? haiz...let me go hell ba
4:10 PM
Thursday, September 23, 2004
Election
can you feel the beat?
well...dunno how long never blog le..recently decided to start mugging..but unfortunately..my determination not up to standard lor...haiz haiz haiz so sad.
today all tchers all course..so no proper lesson at all. A lot of pple pon sch..my class only got 10 over pple come. Hahaha...so damn funny. Den the council election thing. Haiz..i was nervous before the thing started..but much better later coz started to slack after my speech. As a result, i think i totally screw up the question and answer session...especially the last round...they were asking lame lame qns tat are simply just sum stupid riddles. Haha..hack lah. I bet whole sch less than 15 pple vote for me lor. Nvm...wadever it is, it's a good experience. Sum pple say councillors are just free labourers haha...wadever, i think i 98% wont get in de lah. Little bit disappointed, but guess it wont last too long. Monday they gonna release the results.
Haiz den the rest of the day was allllllllllll crap. So actually wasted 6 hrs in sch. Haha..shld go and mug already...so just stop here le. Tata !
3:26 PM
Friday, September 17, 2004
生活到底是什么东西？？？
can you feel the beat?
最近生活充满“惊喜”
忙的头晕目眩
其实有时真的很难受，
不明白为什么生活带给我的似乎只是
痛苦
不明白，从什么时候开始，长大不再有任何惊喜
不明白，为什么付出了那么多，得到的却是一堆的痛心
不明白，到底是我太聪明还是别人太笨，为什么去在乎别人可以丝毫视而不见的事
更不明白，100次告诉自己不要去管那些无药可救的事后，还是忍不住去管
直到残酷的现实打痛了我 原来我所有的付出只换来一句“你帮我们作太多决定了”
泪水忍不住流，不知是咸还是什么味道的
我不会在傻下去了。
生活又跌入低谷
考试一个一个的FAIL
哈哈
我只能苦笑
再苦笑
真的，有的时候，自己也不懂为什么会这样
自己冷酷到不会再去珍惜任何人
心可能
死了
也许世界本来就不公平
8:35 PM
Thursday, September 16, 2004
Well..now having IT lesson..haha not suppose to be doing blog though. Haha..long time haven come blog le.
can you feel the beat?
Yesterday had my most disasterous day..got fed up with my speech training grp. Yah..these days i dunno y, i haven no sense of control over my temper. But anyway i've decided not to care abt it anymore. I've really gave up...it's not worth it to contribute so much till they take u for granted...even think tat i'm the one tat decided everything. So i'm in the wrong am i? funny.... forget it. ..anyway i feel much much peaceful now. haha..yesterday was ridiculous...but it's the best lesson i've learnt that i shld stop caring to much for things tat are not worht it at all.
these few days damn busy mugging. Yah...but i still cant help slacking sumtimes...coz u noe..tv and the comp is a great temptation...hahahha..k lah, nxt time den write. Thinking the tcher is looking at me liao
1:46 PM
Sunday, September 12, 2004
Term 4
can you feel the beat?
well...this entry shall not be long. coz very late liao...i dunno wad am i doing online haha. Tmr is starting of sch liao. Though this holiday is busy..yah..but i still like it...wad i like abt is at least can sleep to 8 am in the morning. I consider tat as veryhappy liao..hahha... Yah and tmr is gonna to start the torture again. Tmr first period have to do the english drama filming liao....god bless us ah...haiz. and soon it would be EOY liao...18 days left to exams lor. Bullshit shit shit shit...coz i haven revise anything except the bio...a bit only lor, tat stupid diffusion part. Never mind...i shall be a super woman and complete all revision before exam. AM I TOKING CRAP? i think i am lor, of coz must complete all revision be4 exams right. Stupid me.
Anyway, recently really very depress and tired abt...abt wad i oso dunno...just felt very irritated when things come into my mind...Haiz...i you1 yu4 zheng4 liao lor. Yah..so term 4 onli got 2 weeks before the exams. So tat means i have to PIA liao. IF NOT, i can go and commit suicide liao. Last night called my grandma, really miss her lor, hope to see her soon...yah i think it wuld be rather soon, just pass this stupid one month den i gonna relax liao. haha
k lah, i shall stop the craps, gotta go le. ~tata
9:50 PM
Wednesday, September 08, 2004
this morning got up at 9am...as usual..i'm turning into a pig..sleeping 9 hrs a day lor. Then pia finish tat stupid book review. However, i still cant bear to think how much homework i have not completed. Shit to ny ba. i'm getting more n more violent and vuglar. NOT MY PROBLEM LHA...haaa...i'm insane.
can you feel the beat?
Yesterday cca rehearsing 4 the mid autumn one...me n lanfang's act is damn funny...at first we were blushing away lor. Cant imagine me blush right...haha..i inocent lor. -_-
last night had a very very bad dream..when i woke up, i myself tearing away. Dreamt of my grandfather...perhaps coz yesterday tok to xia abt her grandfather...ended up dreaming abt those things myself. Haiz...felt weird. People who are dead may be living in another world, and people like us who r alive, perhaps all we can do is to live a better life. I suddenly start to wonder, is there life after death?? i'm being mad, coz just read sophie's world, so i'm getting inquisitve at sum useless things to think abt.
Dizzy. Nxt fri is mid autumn liao..sumore monday we have to film tat english speech drama. Omg...i dun think the script is even ready yet. Sumtimes i really feel unfair for myslf lor.Everytime speech training...only half of the group come. I dun understand WAD'S THE PROBLEM WITH ALL THOSE FUCKING PPLE DOWN THERE. I'M REALLY ANGRY WHEN MENTIONING THIS LOR. Just cant get it y pple are taking things for granted! F diao lah! I'm soooo angry. Since they dun care, den y must i care? are u telling me tat sec 2/2 onli consist of those few pple who care? wad are the rest?? dead bodies issit? Cant u just bring damn ass down to the sch for rehearsal? I'm really sick of it when pple tell me"sorry tat i cant come..." Do u really mean sorry? Like so real right? Even the roles...we keep changing and changing and changing...in the end, it's no one wants to act tat role, and i have to take it. WAD'S THE PROB LOR. I JUST CANT GET IT. other classes they were fighting for the roles lor. SO GREAT THERE'S SUCH A BIG CONTRAST COMAPRED TO MY CLASS.
Suddenly think tat wad alberto said is right...pple are taking the world for granted!
FUCK! i just wan to shout this damn word lor.
sorry for my vulgarities...i'm really bushuang when i think of such an amazing scene..i contributed my time, 4 hrs...but onli a few turn out. Great.
1:25 PM
Monday, September 06, 2004
Well...well...
can you feel the beat?
this week..
monday: watched the face, afternoon violin
tues: cca
wed: nil
thurs:nil
fri: speech training
my one week holiday..oh dear, it's rather occupied lor. Saturday went to watch anacondas..veri nice!! haha...den this morning went to watch the face..we went in to the cinema at 10.20am. Too early and amazingly, there altogether plus myself 3 pple in the cinema...so very scary actually. Haha..i decided nxt time never watch korean ghost movie le..coz it's so senseless.
i'm slacking like siao haiz. This holiday's hw all haven do. Tat stupid book review..i dunno wad book to write abt. Fankly, i've not been reading books at all...besides literature book, stupid lord of the flies...so how? go library borrow book lor...so sianz..haiz
Today went little guilin...nice senery yah.
2:31 PM
Friday, September 03, 2004
Exciting days
can you feel the beat?
these few days have been extremely "exciting"
Thurs
..i was in the class, having physics, when suddenly, this miss wong came to ask melissa out. Den, melissa came back, whispered to me: today is the healthzone competition, we have to leave at 12! Kao...it's today!!!!!!
well, den me and jiayi n via start to get agitated..i cant concentrate to a single word TPY said. Den 12.03pm, we went out of the class, missing one period of science lesson and sum crap lessons. Haha..so exciting till siao le, i must thanks whoever suppose to info us we have compeition on tat day but she didnt! thanks you! thankyou for making us going mad..u r such a "responsible" person man!
Then me and jiayi got on a taxi, rush to my house and her house to get the scripts and diskets wheres melissa n via took taxi to go their houses. We rush like siao lor. Broke world record le i think. Finally in the end got to the health promotion board, wait for yrs to do our presentation...after all those stupid matters tat happened(like laptop can't play our video)...i finally reach home at about 5.45pm.
And for ur infomation, 5.45pm, it's damn late. Math test is the nxt day and hist assignment is due the nxt day as well. Tat night, i slept at 12am. Great. Again, i've got to thank whoever suppose to tell us the compeition date but didnt info us before hand. Thank you so much, i should give u a punch for doing such a great job.
Friday
Today is math test for godness sick! shit lor. Last night due to time constriants of coz didnt study much at all. Plus me this kind of foreva stupid person...amth so damn lan4 haiz. Yah, as expected, i flunk my math test. Really flunk, i'm not kidding lor...i think i'll fail again lor. Can't forgive myself anymore. I hate it, when for dunno wad reason, when i said i fail the last math test no one wans to believe...fine lor...i'm gonna fail again. such an easy test actually...just tat the triangels made me dizzy and blur liao...Me this stupid gal! cant give think of pythoras theorem when i'm suppose to use it...i stupid enough to go and use trigo to slove and get some kind of weird answers. Damn it!
tat's the first crush in the day. Den i had to rush thru my science ws, quickly copy copy...dun understand the whole thing at all...and i was piaing history assignment during music lesson. OMG..nxt nxt week..we got hist test, lit test, music quiz and blah blah blah in week one. Is the teachers mad?? hallooooo??? one week=7 days only. U think i can do so many things issit? Fcuk them off.
Then today after sch rush thru all my work and stay back to do the ite video till 4.30 pm. Finally got out of sch at 4.50pm. OMG lor...today is the last day of the term..yet all these stupid busy stuffs happen..who ask the teachers all so siao...give reasons like must hand in coz they wan to mark during holiday. Hallooo?? u call it holiday? it's onli 7 patheic days whereby the onli good thing is tat i can get a few more hours of sleep. Shit to them.
Fri night.
well, tonight i got to rush thru my chinese compo, tmr have to hand it . And tmr's plan
9-1pm: speech training rehearsal
12.30pm: cca meeting
2pm: my cute mum has to attend this council meet parent tea session.
wad a tight day again...lets "look forward" to the future.
O yah! tmr got speech training at conference room..meet at canteen by 9am. Huitian has booked the room, so pple better come!...erm...dunno whether how many pple can see my message here. omg...hope tmr most pple will turn up.
7:22 PM
Wednesday, September 01, 2004
I miss...
can you feel the beat?
Yesterday was teachers' day celebration...i didnt went back pri sch lah, coz dun feel like mahz. In the end slacking at home from 12pm to 5pm..watching tv and stuffs. I so siao right? everytime dunno y i say i wan to do this do tat, in the end always ended up doing slacking. Haiz, cant help it le, seems tat i got no hope le lah.
Yesterday afternoon tok to ekping for a long time on the phone...miss her yahz. Actually sumtimes really miss my pri sch days. Haha, den she told me about her probs and i suddenly felt tat this world is so damn amazing. 2 yrs ago, we still had the same life, same world, same worries. But now, 2 yrs later, we are in a diff world of probs..diff lifestyle. Haha, i told her tat my mentality got problem liao, i could no longer take anyone seriously anymore. Perhaps after so many experiences, i cant open my heart anymore. Aiyo!!! wad am i saying i oso dunno lah
this morning woke up at 9am...damn late. I went to revise a bit of math, in the end stuck at a question and dun feel like doing liao...den again ended up slacking here online playing playing. Haiz, i'm slowly giving up myself bit by bit. Dunno wad to say lah, i'm damn frustrated. Fri math test le lor, i dun hope to repeat the history and fail again of coz. Yesterday saw my online progress reoprt. It's soooo nice to see sum red marks down there. I felt so bad not telling my mum about it, she totally dun noe how bad i have done at all...perhaps i need a good scolding frm someone. ANYONE WAN TO SCOLD ME??? U ARE FREE TO DO SO, i welcome tat.
1:24 PM