Monday, November 29, 2004

Peaceful day

-2 more days to camp-
-6 more days to flying-

Sunday went out to check quotations for cards and papers..Den went to see my cousin again. Had a trip with her family to sentosa on sat..den sun went to her house to play. She was wearing this snow white costume tat's really very cute. Haiz..this gal, keep on throwing toys all around..her toys can make up one whole nursery..that's a lot. Anyway my uncle's whole family moving to paris in dec..yup so wont be seeing them anymore.

My dad finally got me speakers to the com..finally can listen to some music. haha...tried downloading schubert's serenade..but dunno why unable to download. Now listening to the voice within..quite a nice song by christina.

Today woke up and decided to finish up that essay. Haiz...i forgot how to write arugmentive essay liao..so now's checking it out. Gonna bring the bonsetter's daughter to china to read. Haiz...sianz ahz...nth much to do at home. Dunno why that i keep slacking and slacking. Lazy till dun even want to step out of my house.^lazy me^

~i think i've changed. I'm no longer the old me that influence people with my life theroies, no longer the old me that care and console them when they are down. Because i chose not to be foolish anymore. Life is your path, you have to find it out urself.~

Thursday, November 25, 2004

Open House

today had our sch de open house..went here early in the morning for council duty. Me and Geneveie stood at the side gate to usher pple in..haiz..got lots of mosquitoes crowded onto our legs. They shld thanked us for feeding with wif our precious blood..now i got 10 over bited on my legs...wth..other than that it was going on quite okay. But somehow it seems that our school's open hse is not up to a very warm atmosphere...dunno why..i was thinking where the prob lies in. I think all the student leaders on post are quite friendly and warming already. Maybe prob lies in that the activities on display are not attractive enough? Hard to think of things that can entertain those parents and kids better.

Den while i was going home...i met with this auntie who was actually bad mouthing ny right in front of me...neglecting my existence..or issit purposely for me to hear? I ren3 wu2 ke3 ren3 and actually spoke up for my sch manz..but i said in a extreme friendly tone. Can't believe it eh, me this kind of person can pretend to be so nice. Haiz, nvm i shan't tok abt it anymore. These days dunno what's the prob with pple...it's such a disgrace.

Came back home and sleep very long...coz last night slept at 1am..so now is really very tired. My holiday hw s are still on my table lying there. Haiz...dunno when am i going to do it. I feel like scolding myself. I m such a slacker, slack for one month liao still want to slack. Ugh urgh urgh.......can't go on like this any more..i must go and find some force to push myself.

I'm now missing via and cy who have gone overseas. Think cy now in beijing already...haiz..so shiok. O yah..today met helen..nxt yr gonna sister class with her=)

Tuesday, November 23, 2004

Sec4 farewell

today finally had our cca farewell party after so much of discussions=) Hmm...i was a bit suai today. The mrt dunno y stop at the redhill station for 10 mins..thinking some boliao pple went to press the emergency button. Haiz, so in the end got to the meeting place a bit late. And my team already went off for the missions! Joan was there so she guided them lahz. Then she accompanyed us till like the first station then she went off..got something yahz. So me..the tour guide..continue to lead the team. But actually, frankly, i'm a road-blind person. Muahaha...so just do my job to give them the clues and missions. Haha..we only got a bit lost at the bishan there...not quite familiar with tat place..so i went to ask the bus uncle. Good tat he told me the right place.

Hmm...my team was rushing almost all the time. Coz we were afraid to be water bombed. In the end got to the finishing place a few minutes before chengshan's team. Haha...Lastly gathered together and sang some songs lah...got our hui4 ge1 and blah blah. Took lots of grp photos. In the end even ask 3 anderson sec sch guys to help us take mass photo. Jas and jingfeng very attractive hoh..no lah..i'm just kidding.^^

I'm damn tired now..legs very pain siaz..walk a huge distance today yahz. On the way back home was talking with xuetying abt cca. Can see tat she got lots of hopes for this cca..and i think it's really time to think abt what can i really help cca to progress in the future. I think i really do need to list my piorities...nxt yr have to juggle betw cca, council ,studies, violin. Wadever it is i think cca will be better in the future years. Even though in my sec sch timess i may not see it in its best glory, but maybe in the future 3-4 years it will florish in nanyang. Who noes?!

Sunday, November 21, 2004

I'm down with a heavy ,serious, damn seious flu. Haiz...stupid weather..last night quite cold den i caught the cold..wth. Haiz...damn sickening ...urgh urgh urgh. Just now discovered we got english holiday assignment...1500 word essay and some lit stuffs. wth wth wth wth....

today went to lavender for elects meeting den came back and slept until 7pm smth. The medicine is making me drowsy...haiz...i've been sleeping most of the time today. I'm turning piggy very very soon. SOSO sadddd.

mum just got the tickets. I'm leaving on 6 dec midnight to beijing...will be back by the morning of 30 dec... I'm eager to go overseas really....damn sian sian sian. OKOK crap finish liao. I shall stop this entry here. Yeah

Friday, November 19, 2004

现在是下午4点30分，唉，一天又快要完了。我家的VCD PLAYER 正在放王力宏
和范晓宣合唱的<雪人>。呵呵^^ 我真是无聊透顶了，这么老的歌也翻出来听。北京现在想必下雪了吧，好多年都没看到雪了。不是我说，这里真是个无聊的地方，笼中鸟啊。

昨天本来要去海边看流星，结果老妈不爽-不放心我晚上跟朋友出去。我就忍痛割爱，跟我梦寐以求的流星雨说拜拜了。哈哈，其实也不是啦。新加坡这个地理位置也不一定会看到的。狮子座流星雨是一年一度的，明年在说吧。

今天是O LEVEL 的最后一天吧，考完试已经一个月了，我还整天东晃晃西晃晃，真是无可救药了。也真不能怪我妈整天在跟我唠叨，我的确是太不像话了。其实我最近是觉得有点空虚感，也不怎么就觉得很孤独，头一次觉得有个哥哥还是妹妹是很好的事。平时忙的时候家里来电不断，偏偏现在半个闲聊的电话也没有。该走的都走了嘛。

昨晚梦见自己明天要考GEOGRAPHY却没复习，在梦里吓得一身冷汗。恐怖死了啊，太久没考试了，想到就怕到不行。呵呵。

没话说了，就到这里吧。最近整天睡10个小时，长胖了，要减肥了。

Wednesday, November 17, 2004

haiz...today is just another slacky day.
woke up by a call from cy while i was still in my dreams...suddenly got this call tat says"i'm leaving for the airport soon..." Obviously, another friend gone overseas.

Then i went to brush my teeth and about to get breakfast tat time got a call saying today got invest de programme meeting. I was like..huh?? wad the hell..no one tell me got meeting! Then i didn't go for the meeting lah...coz even if i rush there, i'll be late for about 45min...wad's the use?!

Wed and thurs are the best days to view meteor rain...it can be best seen from the northern hemisphere...Haha..actually wanted to go see tonight, but sadly it's raining and of coz the sky isn't clear.

Got nothing to write liao, just realize one month of the holiday is actually gone and i've done nothing.

Monday, November 15, 2004

Haha, i'm officially 16 liao=) i can guang1 ming2 zheng4 da4 go watch nc-16 movies...haha...
ok...actually today isn't tat exciting afterall. Just went shopping wif mum at orchard there...went to haagen das to eat ice cream, didn't really buy lots of things lah. Coz i was rather tired after walking around for 4 hrs plus.

Saw this chanel, LV, prada etc etc prominent shops...haiz..although i felt those bags and stuffs inside damn nice, but didn't even go in to have a look...coz no money, tat place too "high-class" hahahahha. Nxt time must earn a lot of money then can collect those branded bags. I'm just kidding, no intention of collecting bags, it's a waste of money.Then my mum was like bought me a nice cute Fila bag instead, i like it lahz.

Thankz to all those pple who wished me happy birthday=) especially to people who are not so close to me yet...like miao etc. Under comparison, u ppx are much greater than those"close" friends of mine. Frankly speaking, words of true hearted wishes are more precious to me than any other things. Haha..ok lah, stop crapping le.

ummm...going to eat the cake later. I'm thinking wad wishes shld i made..year 2002 i wished for getting into NY, year 2003 i wished for getting into IP. Yes, they 've all come true. But actually i wished for happiness of everyone and myself each year...but dunno whether got come true...i don't really experience happiness most of the days.

Shall stop writing here..be4 tat, still have to give my wishes to sum other ppx.

Zhaowei: happy bdae (same yr same mnth same day as me)
sharon's grandpa: happy 66th bdae..haha
My cousin's maid: happy birthdae as well=)

Saturday, November 13, 2004

Low.Down.Whatever you can call it.

i'm not feeling right. Don't feel like explaining why. Today wrote a whole chunk of words in my personal dairy. There's only one conclusion: i'm a simple human, not a god...thus i don't have the big heart to accept being taken for granted.

Today morning have been in sch for council stuff till like 5 pm over. Tired.
Next year's posting: [sec 301, IP, triple science.]
I've gotten 3 sciences, i've gotten what i wanted. Next year will have 4 councillors in my class: me, jiayi, biqi and carolyn. Yup..and got a few scholars from china or malaysia also. Quite looking forward to next year. Or should i say, i hope tomorrow is already 2nd of january...it's not that i'm so enthu abt sch. But...i suddenly need to be busy, so as to forget things that i should not think too much about..in other words, busy life is the cure.

I'm sorry that i decided not to care about some people anymore . I'll get heart attack. Coz if u can open my heart, i got lots of scars inside.I said before i'll never try to die coz i treausre my life...since i'm alive, i'll live. But that maybe doesn't include living like a live corpse. O ya, i got another huge discovery. I may seem pessi by the surface...but actually deep inside i'm far too optimistic about life...optimistic untill it's call innocent.

Friday, November 12, 2004

Sianz

haha, here i am crapping on my blog again. WEee~~ today woke up at 9am..watch tv and slack until now. Didn't do a single constructive thing except making my bed...haha..i think tat's considered far far far too minor. Haha...really very sian at home. I'm reading the da vinci code again, didn't really have time to read it though i borrowed it 2 weeks ago.

3 more days to my b'dae =) haha..i think i'm just too sianz and nothing better to do..muhaha.

Plans for the nxt few days--Sat: morning cheer session, afternoon council GM
Sun: go visit my cousin maybe?
Mon: Go out wif dagougou and bianbian ...treat mum a good meal
for giving birth to me on this day:)
Tues: Back to slacking..Tv and computer the whole day..haha

I'm getting lamer and lamer..urgh can't stand myself. I suddenly realize the good of having siblings. At least it won't be tooooo sian at home alone...mum's coming back at 11pm today again...haiz, i'm hating those stupid instant noodles. I suggest the home econs lessons shld teach sumthing more constructive lah..just teach simple cooking can already. Our home econs did what research paper and making a cushion cover this year. Well...it's totally not put into use in daily practical life man. Guess i still have to bear with instant noodles for a few more days.

I've crapped enough i think. Yup! so stop here!!!

Thursday, November 11, 2004

Lazy Day

haha..actually want to blog in chinese, but my chinese sofware sucks like dunno what, very difficult to use =(

Today went out..roaming around in plaza singapura..muhaha went around the yamaha shop..Saw lots of nice nice ear rings but bought nothing. Yup, it's really purely window shopping. haha, and my speed of window shopping is very fast ehz. Go in for 10 seconds then come out liaoz. Didn't really noe today's a public holiday, if not i'll not go out wif friends..will stay at home wif my mum instead. This whole wk didnt really have time to tok to her, she everyday back at 11pm..haiz.

Actually today quite happy...just roaming around makes me happy ehz..i'm so easily contented. Muhaha...no lah, tat's not the true reason. Coz got to see a long never see friend. Actually it's hard to express sum feelings and yup, sum things can only be forever kept in the memories. I think i've grown up. Haha..as in i learnt to let things take their natural course. Some pple will just not stay long in your life..but some may just stay rather a long time, or even for a life time. I'm getting more and more chim.

[记忆就象过滤器，留下来的永远都是最美好的]

O ya..forget to say something. There's someone 跟我同年同月同日生. YUp, this is something that makes me happy as well. 也许是有点太单纯了，但生命来之不易，更何況是同时跟你看到世界的人。

现在正在听《火月》，令人着迷的音乐--好像在説故事一样，还带着点忧郁。

Wednesday, November 10, 2004

Ladder 49

well..today went to jurong point to watch movie wif jiayi and eliza..dear cute eliza went all the way frm east to west to watch with us..hahahahah...If i'm not wrong, the last movie that made me cried is brotherhood. Yup. And ladder 49 is another one tat made me dropped a few tears. The storyline is a bit too narrow. But anyway it's quite nice and touching at the end lah.

Mmm..tmr will be going out as well. These few days mum is so busy tat she comes home by 11pm smth?! haiz..patheic me...Second week of the holidays gonna over soon and i've absolutely done nothing at all...hahaha..

My plans for before going oversea
1) spend more time on violin
2) buck up my math
3) read more books..yup
4) think abt my future plans..really must have a target

I actually feel werid when i tot abt being a hcjc student in 2 yrs. It seems too easy..as in i didnt really fight for it. And i never say i want to go hc. I oso dunno wad am i doing. IP seems good, but i've lost a chance fighting for my own future. As in, i limited my own choice of JCs..if i've chosen to take o level, i may not end up in HC. Yup..tat's wad i mean. I noe i'm not those kind tat will be contented with my used surroundings...can u believe it, i'm actually feeling sad abt losing the chance to take O's. I think i'm a bit mad....Yes, obivously. I shldn't have these tots at all...since i've already chosen to take IP, den just let it be. I believe i'll gain smth frm IP. Compared to other schs, Ny's Ip may be bad, but at least i think there's still sum difference frm O's. I do hope that it's not just "teachers slacking".

~now..for a very terrible incident~
I ACTUALLY SORT OF NIGHT WALKED!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last night, i was chatting with LiJia and Beibei online for quite a while..instead it's a very long while. Den my mum came back at 11 plus. So i went to sleep after she came back. Den..for dunno wad reason..i found myself standing at before the sofa telling my mum" that play dun need to rehearse le, cut it off"
The most kong3 bu4 part is that i'm wake!! My eyes were opened and dunno why i'm just toking abt smth that's so irrelvant!!! Den my mum stood up frm the sofa and asked me wad's wrong. And den i went on saying" How come only u here, where's the rest??"
My mum really got a shock and ask me if i'm nightwalking..den i suddenly realized i'm toking nonsense. So i went back to sleep.
This is really very very very mad..i dunno wad's wrong with me...i actually dreamt of rehearsing sum play and actually nightwalked to the sofa??? The most non sensible part is that i walked with my eyes open?????!!!!!!!!!!!!! OMG...extremely weird.

Tuesday, November 09, 2004

我为了谁
难到你真的不能夠体会
夜里偷偷流的泪
是我心甘情愿
为你受的罪

我为了谁
难到你真的不能夠体会
反正愛你不后悔
做了最坏的准备
为你燃烧自己
烧尽了还能成灰

我让你飞
飞到天涯也不悔
把所有的心碎
把所有的伤悲
把所有痛苦留给我背

我让你飞
飞到天涯也不悔
如果你觉得苦
如果你觉得累
我还在原地等你回来
共度喜悲
--《不觉流水年长》

最近不知道怎么了，生活太多感触，昨天夜里竟然失眠了。我爸又飞去北京了，其实他不在我才覚的很悦，說白了就是当家里是ＨＯＴＥＬ的人。唉。。。。。
在家里太闲了，有点想念忙碌的日子。

Just changed blogskin..coz i think i got nothing to do. Anyway, i like this new one..^^ haha. Gonna to post later, i'm going to eat my lunch first.

Sunday, November 07, 2004

today slept till 11am..woah i'm so so so great right? tHESE few days dunno why my shi2 cha1 very werid. My patheic right ear hole is swelling again, of coz i'm damn damn damn pissed ok? My very dear advice to all ppx, never go and pierce in any those kind of ulu shop..go to a formal jewellery shop. Coz i really suspect is the ear stud that's not good and giving me problems. urgh..really very pissed, wad can i do rather than just to feed it with alcohol?!

Just now practised violin for 2 hrs. Realized that i've been slacking this whole year round and i dun think i got improve much on it. Yup, absolutely. I called up MSM.. and they said they got really no place to let me transfer..this means i still hav to stay in tat sucky cristofori music sch.!!!! Urgh, another advice to ppx: if u wan to take up a instrument, nvr go to cristofori, coz the teachers there all suck like dunno what. I think i really have to buck up le, i do want to finish grade 8 before JC2.

Later i may be going out with Julia, 2 years havent seen her le. Yup, she really a nice gal working in my uncle's company. haha..she's 10 yrs older than me lor. I guess lots of pple is flying to some other countries for holidays, or rather, they are already overseas..mmmm very xin4 fu2. I really do want to go sumwhere

Saturday, November 06, 2004

This is really gonna be a long entry, coz i got lots and lots to say. Changed skin a few days ago..pinky scorpion..hahahahah

Choral night--thurs
well..that day me and yingming was gonna ultra mad..or shld i say the eng emcee lixuan is oso going mad together with us. Haha...we were gao3 xiao4-ing all the while..even up stage lah..but dunno y tat day while gao3 xiao4ing on stage i accidentally dropped the cute cute mic..and the audience laugh even louder...and to cover up for me, yingming began her maddy laugh..really maddy and very gay one. I almost wanted to burst out laughing. In the end after the whole thing we got a comment frm Helaoshi " you ppx went too far out...even can drop the mic while gao3 xiao4ing!!!!" It's really a very niceooo memory..me and jellyfish(yingming) were the most enthu emcees the tchers hav seen maybe...enthu untill keep on gao3 xiao4ing...hahahahah

Choral night--fri
yesterday was my own class de performance. It was okay yahz. At first our play got into trouble and almost gonna be taken out..but in the end gary tang's final verdict is that we stay. It was such a relief..coz i dun wan to be the first class to be kicked out of choral night. Haiz...Wad shld i say? ..i sarcificed a lot for our spch training thing and although my grp seems so hack care and unbonded...but just for that few moments on stage, i felt the bit of magic. We were closed at the backstage and after it was over..we were jumping and hugging. Yup...although the audience may think the play is veryvery lame...but anyway, we've tried our best..I can see that frm my grp.

I hugged almost everyone while in the LT , coz it was the last last last day we're gonna be together as a class--as 202. I almost cried, but with my freaky makeup on the face..i didnt. There will still be a 202 nxt yr, but it will be new faces, not us anymore. 202 did gave me lots and lots of bushuangness becoz of of the unbondness, but wadever it is, i still felt very sad to really say goodbye to this class. We'll never be in the same class again, never again to be in the same room to have lessons. O ya..niu laoshi is going back to china nxt yr, she not teaching in nanyang anymore oso. Sec 2 year has officially ended. No matter wad it is, i'll really treasure the memories. I suddenly remember wad gary tang said" after tonight's performance, all will become memory, and memory can oso fade with time". I heard him saying this to the whole crowd while i was the emcee on tues and thurs..but it only really touched my heart on fri night. Yup, i treasured every moment on the stage with my class ppx...and so were the rest, i can see xinyi and shiying trying their best to gao3 xiao4. And yup, it was excellent really. No matter it is the second half grp or first half grp, as long as we've done well as a class, it is worth it to be proud of.

I guess i've got to stop here le, the memories will stay, i noe it will still fade one day, but at least it has once been in my brain. All the best to my classmates and of coz niulaoshi. Goodbye.


Saturday
today woke up at 8 smth and went to sch for council batch meeting. I suddenly tot that maybe it's time for me to take a few days to settle down and think abt my nxt yr's plan. I've got to plan my time of coz and really..i've got to make myself used to council. Since i've taken this route, I will try my best to give it my enthusiasim and of coz i wan to be happy in it. Nxt yr's gonna be a big change-- council, new class, new subjects, new teachers, and of coz a new me as well.

I shall end this long entry here. got to go and practise my violin le...this whole week i didnt practise coz of choral nights.~tata

Wednesday, November 03, 2004

choral night--tues

well..yesterday got left home at 7am in the morning and went back at 11pm in the night. shiok...lll It was my first expericence to be an emcee..so i think it wasn't that well afterall. Coz a few instances my partern and I were quite nervous..dunno y lah. There was once she came out with her voice shaking and i got nervous as well.

Going home that time met liulisha on 66...she was complaining to me that we didnt thank the teachers..i was like dotz...the english emcee already thanked a bunch of pple at the ending, including teachers. o..i think that's becoz she said "we oso like to thanked the speech trainers" instead of "we would like to thanked liulisha and blah blah blah" Haha...den i finally understood that she wan to hear her name. Super ultra dotz. And yap..she said" u pple didn't thanked me and yet dropped the mic at the ending part"...den i was like erm...the mic dropped by itself!!! anyone with eyes shld be able to see that. The sch dunno y so patheic that one mic suddenly got no sound and thus 3 pple and to share 2 mics..that's y the mic dropped.

Yup..the audience was a bit rowdy than wad i expected. Esp during the interval announcing part, be4 we even say anything, they were already moving out...kaoz...very proed lehz...yingming and i was rather pissed of coz. The whole thing was ok lah..at least i believe so. But somehow the comments given by sum pple is that the choral night tis yr is not as good as last yr one. I oso felt so lah...but anyway we still got wed to fri's performance.

Haiz, later supposed to go for my class play de rehearsal...i wonder how many pple will come...pple start to hav short term memory yahz..and yesterday i didnt really hav the chance to make announcement to the grp. God bless us ba...i'm fat hoping that everything will be very good on friday...btw our lighting is not done, sound effects none, props not ready, acting skills not bucked. So really...God must bless us le.