Tuesday, June 28, 2005

YOUTH DAY VERVE'05
08.06.05

Sunday, June 26, 2005

LAST DAY OF JUNE HOLS

well..or i shld say, in 12 hrs time, school is already starting. I dunno what's the prob with me, i'm not feeling alright. Very tensed for no reason. Oh well, actually got reason. Number 1: All SIAS incomplete! Number 2: I didn't manage to revise for a single subject Number 3: Term 3's gonna be extreme extreme hectic Number 4: I'm missing my cca rather badly 'coz very long never see them. Missed rehearsals for twice coz of youth forum and council camp. Number 5: A big headache of how to balance up my commitments. Number 6: to quit violin or not to. 'coz i don't have the time for it but i still don't feel like giving up.

This don't seems to be a good starting, with myself mentally tired a day before sch restarts. And u know what, i suddenly remembered Mr Khoo! God, i havent touch math for one whole month. Good luck to myself for Term 3. Really. Coz i'm kinda tired and perhaps maybe at some points i'm prepared to break down and just depend on luck.

Alright. Don't feel like writing already. I miss CCA. The more i talk to Lijia about next year, the more i miss cca.Stupid me.

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Council June camp 2005

Just back frm the Camp xXx. Haha. rox..although i got myself really tired and every part of body is under pain now, somemore got lots of clothes totally in mud. My mum was screaming at me for the mud just now but hack cares hahaaa.

Shan't write about the details...just want to say that i feel batch 10 now is even much more bonded.. cant forget the moment when we were suffering yet singing and doing our superman cheer. Haha..yeah right. We are supermen!! haha and we'll continue to strive to be=) Can't forget the let's talk session when all of us cried...when tears flooded me when all those things came into my mind--things about youth forum, things about our batch, things about council, things that are going to happen in the future council term.

On my way back home after having dinner with batch 10...i suddenly feel that my mind got cleared. Cleared part is that--no matter what happens in the future, to be happy or not is entirely up to me...it doesn't matter what others did, coz i can't really control other people's emotion, but at least i can control myself.

Life is a road i want to keep going
love is a river i want to keep flowingYah, i want to keep going. No matter what's happening to my surroundings, no matter who leaves who comes or whatever.

Batch 10, go on and love on.

Sunday, June 19, 2005

疯

鱼 说 ： 你 看 不 到 我 的 泪 ， 因 为 我 在 水 中
水 说 ： 我 感 觉 的 到 你 的 泪 ， 因 为 你 在 我 心 中 。

我 不 知 道 自 己 怎 么 了 。 但 我 知 道 ， 我 们 完 蛋 了 。 我 不 想 干 什 么 了 ， 不 想 对 任 何 人 作 出 任 何 努 力 。 不 值 得 。 因 为 ， 让 我 告 诉 你 ： 你 已 经 伤 害 了 我 。 不 我 说 错 了 。 你 没 有 。 不 是 你 的 错 。 是 我 发 疯 了 ， 才 发 现 自 己 有 多 依 靠 你。

你 看 不 到 我 的 泪 ， 因 为 你 不 是 我 的 水 ， 真 的 不 是 。

爱 上 我 不 该 爱 的 人 。 是 我 自 己 伤 害 自 己 。


I'm not going to cry. I'm not. But how can i not when i'm already doing so.

Friday, June 17, 2005

TOO MUCH

yesterday went for this mgs thingy..it was so-so..alright..then after that me and sharon and jiaen really like rushed to hci to go their slc night. Haha...rather a nice night..NXT YEAR i really really want to go slc!!! haha...next time dun care how busy i am already. Rather a number of ppx frm my batch were there.haha..felt like youth forum while seeing them so hyped..esp when they play this song" friends forever"...amazingly saw ekping there as well, but screamed at her and she can't hear me...*hmmm* then met clara on my way home..and crapped with her.

These few days don't know why really stressed.Youth day.Grad gift.And think tank is the first week. Ahh think abt it i'm already tired-_- Somemore next mon got council camp and i'm kinda not prepared for it at all. It's already end to third week of the hols. OMG...i've done no homework. haha..what a weird sentence. I mean i haven't touch any of my homework. Congrats to me...and all my SIAs..people are like dying or what, just keep on depending on others to do their parts. Like come on, i don't like such low quality work. Whatever. Really tired. Hating those SIAs so much.

What i have to do before holiday ends
1) get out youthday opening speech and everything confirmed
2) get formal quotations for grad gift and confirm order
3) chemistry ws
4) Phy assign
5) study SS test
6) pia finish all SIAs
7) cme portfilo
8) study bio, chem, math, phy...(ah actually practically won't have time to do so)

It seems rather scary. Erhm. Okies..need to go and do my SS report now.

Tuesday, June 14, 2005

Youth Day Verve 2005

Okies..went to cut ticks and do banner today for youth day..efficiency seemed to be rather slow. Hmm unable to go tmr again..just hope that log comm's stuffs can all be done by tmr.

I seriously feel the lack of time.look..we've got 23 days left. that's 2 weeks and a bit more only. Dotz... And xiaowen now is in shanghai enjoying her beautiful wonderful and fantastic holiday. Hmm..haha. Yah right..i'm kinda frustrated coz no one's here to share the work load with me.

Lets see what i need to do before sch reopens
1) action plan for that day, manpower plan
2) opening ceremony proposal
3) opening speech
4) checking with NE department for their time slot

and plz god..i still got mountains of hw..all the sias are rotting away. And i really need time to revise my work..if not term 3 will be just even worse than term 1 or 2. My msg would probably go up to 4 smth..then people will come and congrat me. Haha..how interesting.

Okies...start work tonight..great time doing solo work. I dunno who shall i thank.

Sunday, June 12, 2005

Post Syndrome

i know that i should be pia-ing my sias now..i know i should be pia-ing my mountains of homework now. But...ahhh...just cant get over it. Very very very serious post youth forum syndrome...i believe the others do as well.AHHHHHHHH...some scenes keep on appearing in my mind...ahhh. I even miss staying back in school so late together with log comm! Oh dear. Seriously, i want to have that crazy-cum-maddy-cum-touching concert again. Yes i want. AHH that scene of us crying while watching the montage can't be wiped away from my mind. Everyone is telling tat they miss it.Hahas.

How i hope that the whole youth forum ppx can be down in nanyang for a minute and shout together--YOUTH FORUM, WE MISS U!

hehez.i'm going insane.

Friday, June 10, 2005

YOUTH FORUM FINALE

it ended. ENDED.I'm like speechless now. In my mind--there's this song call I believe, there's these people from C5, there's this scene when log comm dance on the stage with huge smiles on our faces and cried after that and got damn hyped.

i really don't know what to say.Let me just depict a few scenes stucked in my mind now

2nd day--sub grp lunch
Me. Xiaowen. Tingwei. Sin Hwee. Lorna. Gabriel. We went plaza sing. Haha..ate and laughed non-stop. Or shld i say that it's only me and tingwei that laugh non stop? coz think he has this laughing disease and i have the potential of getting this disease as well. We has all these lame jokes along the way. Haha even got what black magic etc etc. So lame yet so fun.

2nd day--log comm dance
log comm stayed late as usually, coz need to practise our dance. but too bad no music, so we have to count the beats. And it's wonderful to hear the whole comm count together extremely loud to cheer each other on. Feelings beyond desciption. Tears filled my eyes for a while and i remembered hugging michelle to jiayou her for dancing without a partern. u rocked.

3rd day-- proposal
Got our sub grp proposal done. Tingwei and sin hwee presented it..haha. Realized sin hwee is a public relations pro. Haha. okies. the best part was that C6 all vote for us and C5 all vote for them. In the end we got same votes and beat C1. haha. So we combined and gonna present in audi. Then the most amazing part is that this guy frm C6 and tingwei keep on arguing over if or not to include sec sch pple into the project. hahahah....funny..still rem how amazing it is. hanyun even suggest them go over to hci to argue coz our sch building might collapse coz they are too loud.

3rd day--Concert
I only remembered that log comm really enjoyed it on stage. Really. Dun care if we got any moves wrong or not. It's like erm...great. Yah so great. Coz we know we are experiencing the last moments of the forum...we enjoyed to be on stage. yah man. Then TLB played. they Rocked...batch 9, our seniors u rocked as well.thankz for being there to support us. Haha..then we were having this train thing..holding hands and running all around. this is what nanyang gals like to do.haha den we went up the stage like mad..jumping screaming..crying whatever. We got damn hyped. The participants were hyped as well. See them cheering see them singing. Oh yeah. what a beautiful picture=)


there's too much to say. Now i suddenly feel the hard work paid off. And really. thankz to biqi and xinying who have been working many times harder than us.Haha..got too many pple to thank..dunno what to write liao..ahhahaha. Okies. Erm i guess i shall stop here. Let this post syndrome fade. And yah. There's still YOUTH DAY!!!!

Tuesday, June 07, 2005

Youth Project 2005

Thursday, June 02, 2005

It takes effort to smile every smile

It really takes a lot of effort to smile every single smile...but it's true that i smile everyday. Yah, but who knowns if i make an effort to smile or not. I don't know what am i saying. Mum is coming home everyday with that kind of face--she's unhappy with her boss lah. Yah, and it's apparent that when she's like this, she treat me like hell as well. Just wonder if my parents even know whatever i'm feeling. They don't. U don't . I don't as well. Coz right now i'm a bit sane and i also don't really known what am i feeling.
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To all those who are happily going holiday to whatever place, enjoy your trip=)
I'll still smile.