Friday, July 22, 2005
黑 暗
can you feel the beat?
现 在 感 觉 世 界 很 黑 暗 。 呵 呵 。 突 然 想 到 备 备 讲 过 的 “爱 到 死 ”。 其 实 不 能 爱 到 死 ， 真 的 不 能 。 不 知 怎 么 今 天 看 了 某 SENIOR 的 BLOG， 更 觉 得 自 己 的 FLAME IS DYING OUT。 非 常 不 能 理 解 为 什 么 世 界 上 有 人 喜 欢 伪 装 自 己 的 虚 荣 心 而 一 骗 在 骗 ， 更 不 能 理 解 为 什 么 有 人 选 择 相 信 一 些 不 该 相 信 的 事 情 。
莫 名 其 妙 的 突 然 想 到 了 程 珊 的 那 个 什 么 等 价 交 换 。 看 来 真 的 永 远 无 法 平 等 ， 你 相 信 的 别 人 不 一 定 相 信 ， 你 的 信 念 别 人 不 一 定 赞 同 ， 你 的 付 出 别 人 不 一 定 明 白 ， 你 的 冷 却 别 人 更 是 无 法 感 受 。 总 之 我 突 然 之 间 好 像 明 白 了 很 多 事 情 。 突 然 也 冷 了 很 多 。 才 明 白 有 些 地 方 真 的 不 适 和 某 种 人 。 以 后 我 会 做 我 该 做 的 事。我 会 爱 自 己 多 一 点 ， 爱 那 些 我 该 爱 的 东 西 多 一 点 。
很 想 隐 居 。 呵 呵
I'll not anticipate for the so called "wonderful" future anymore. I hate it when there's too many lies.
6:17 PM
Monday, July 18, 2005
I love you so much.
can you feel the beat?
Haha. Xi Ju Zu!! i love you ! haha. hear my confession? haha. i'm being lame. Art fest was great. Numberous times when i either about to cry or tears already flowing out:
1) night show at the backstage hearing the main actors trying their best
2) after last performance hanyan hugging me
3) me and hanyan and lanfang hugging together...tears flowing
4) when i see tears in yihong's eyes i couldn't control anymore
5) reading the note frm xuetying and rachel
6) amazingly met silvia and we hugged and cried and at the same time sec2 life some how by pass by mind.
7) finale--singing when i believe on the stage
It was memorable.Thank you to all actors. Thanks to all working people--jas, huijun, huangyi,joan etc etc etc. Thanks to my dearest lanfang and hanyan.=)
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Today did damn damn damn damn badly for bio test. didnt even finish the essay question. Whatever. I'm determined that i'm not going to take bio in jc anymore. I'm so humane kind. haha.
3:49 PM
Friday, July 15, 2005
Festival of Arts 2005
can you feel the beat?
My 2nd and ever last art fest in nanyang.Don't really known what to say. Xi ju zu... we are going to do our best k? =)
My life's in a terrible mess.It has been "great" that its so hard for me to catch up with my work... ...Terrible man. This is very bad. My mum has been nagging at me for ages.Asking me to be more devoted to studies.I better study hard man... if my term 3 is still so damn screwed ( which most probably is gonna be), my mum would just kill me by forcing me to let go of some of my devoted commitments.
Wadever.I know that the coming days are not going to be any easier. But i will try, try to get better results
3:47 PM
Saturday, July 09, 2005
Youth Day Verve 05
can you feel the beat?
It was over in a split second... all the efforts from the ever first planning in April... ... It was tiring but really--good exposure. Thanx to all batchmates and seniors for all the hard work and advice. After the whole thing batch 10 was in council room happily eating all those food left over from council booth.. muhaha... after that i went back home and slept like dead for like 3 hrs. Haha, though got lots of other stuffs like SIAs to pia... but i didnt bother. I slacked my whole friday night away.Hehe.
There's still a long way to go.
9:14 AM